I ponder about things, can get quite morbid, theres a possibility that i want everything, everything & anything, but attaining everything is close to impossible, heck, it is impossible.
So sue me.

I feel like my emotions are running wild now.
There's anger, pity, sadness, paranoia & a dash of ________?

& i think i am really good in not showing them.
Eventhough i feel sad about something, i still look happy.
Eventhough theres a feeling of anger, i don't throw things around.
Eventhough theres paranoia, i try not to get it into my head.
& that dash of _______, i'm just confused about that.

Last but not least, i feel pity for myself for having these feelings.
I actually thought i wouldn't care.
Now this, has got me thinking a second time.

Convo with them got me thinking.
Do i really depend on ---- ?
Cos all these while i've only been depending on dance, friends & family,
& myself the most, to keep me smiling.
Cos i know they won't disappoint me.

& yes, paranoia has got the best of me.

I guess i deserved all this. :(

Am throwing all these feelings aside after this post.
I just need to pour this all out on the floor & let it evaporate
into eternal nothingness.

End & ya, i'll smile. :)