I ponder about things, can get quite morbid, theres a possibility that i want everything, everything & anything, but attaining everything is close to impossible, heck, it is impossible.
So sue me.

Dear Dance,
I want to work on my control, sharpness, execution etc.
I want to improve like how others have.
& if you don't see me taking effort,
slap me.

Dear School,
Can you not overload me with work?
That would be great.
Semestral exams coming &
i can't wait to get you over with.

Dear Art,
Sorry i have to delay "& down will come baby, cradle & all"
Blame school.
iloveyou&alwayswill.

.	Dear Miss Arisa
.	aka sexynerdprettygorgeousbaby,
.	Don't forget your daily dose of MEEEE! - lovee
.	toocuteforwords.

End.



3 presentations down in 2 days.
Thats what i call hectic.

I feel so free now that most projects are done,
now left with 2 more.
Persuasive speech & webpage design, company: Pet Shop.

Went NAFA Open House last friday.
Aaron & his friend, Ben i think, will be transferring there.
I really do hope their application's successful.
Aaron's like superexcited like no one's business.
Haha.
& met his friends. They're interesting people. :]

Also, Sinfonia last Sunday.
Gosh, Wan was really good.
Honestly, can't actually see what he's doing,
but can't help looking at him when he plays.
Haha, bravo Wan! & i miss you! =D

It was almost like GDO, well minus Irah.
Next time must really be a GDO ya!
We chilled at Starbucks, then after eating this
Warm Chocolate Cake, i took out our fries which
we didn't get to finish.
& i just put tomato & chilli sauce on the plate
that still has chocolate.
Haha, it doesn't taste that bad honestly.
Fry + Tomato + chocolate = still edible. lol.

Then, haha, we used the leftovers to make this face on the plate.
Just imagine:
Plate as the face
Spoons for the eyes
Receipt for the beard
Fry for the the mouth
& someothers.
& with that,
"Thank you for your service. *arrow to the smiley plate*
There's a kid in everyone" written on a tissue
right beside the plate.
Haha, then rushrush take picture & we dashed off.
Omg, i miss these times with besties/tomodachis/gfs.
I love you guys! *loves*

Anyway, February will be having exams.
I so need to buck up on my studies,
especially Econs & Stats.
I'm like O.O? during tutorials.
Planning to study at Starbucks @ Sembawang Shopping Centre.
Hehe, Itis.... youknowwhatwewant. XD

.....`~`.....
Lovee's such a sexy cute nerd.
MY sexy cute nerd.
I can't help it.
Him = sexy
His dimples = cute.
His glasses = nerd

Sometimes i feel like i just want to tell mummy
that i'm seeing someone.
Lovee's such a great guy,
& i can't bear thinking of one day without him,
without him crapping with me
without him making faces
without him looking at me with those eyes
without him by my side.

It feels odd,
without my daily dose of him.
haha, some expression.

All i want, is to just spend as much time with him.
.....`~`.....

There ya go gfs, an update.
I've blown off all the dust & cobwebs
thats here for 13 days. haha

Dealove, we'll have another heart-to-heart soon alright? hehe.
Joshie, i'll do that survey on my next update ya, haha
this post is long. XD

Till then,
imgettinggoodatsomethingiknowishouldntbe.

Mum: Have you eaten your medicine?
Me: Yes, i have.
*she asked me this exact same question again*
(I'm not sure if old age has already caught up with her,
or does she even bother listening to me.)

Mum: Have you eaten your medicine?
Me: Yes, i have.
Mum: When?
Me: I took them in the afternoon alr, for now, haven't
*it was nearly midnight*
Mum: Why haven't took them?
Me: Didn't actually had the time to, & i want to eat before i take them.
Mum: Wah, then like that i hope you'll faint again.

We spoke in malay & this is a brief translation, but still..

Like. W.T.F

I love my mum i really do,
but sometimes i just have this deep hatred
on how she parents me.

She just doesn't get it.
Dance is a passion,
its like how scientist devote their lives to science,
its like how Aaron is transferring to NAFA despite knowing the consequences. (lol)

"Its your daughter's passion.
Can't you just let her do what
she does best & accept that."

Yes, i do have my ups & downs,
collapsing due to overworking,
falling ill due to insufficient food.
But i get back up.
I never let those be a barrier to what
i love most.
I get back up straight & continue on what i so love doing.
Now, does that tell you anything?
Anything? Not even an idea?

As of now, dance is important,
& without that, i'm not me.

I have trainings till late nights,
most days.
& when i say i'm in practice, i am.

He just accompanied me back home that day.
It ain't a sin, is it?
Cos kill me if it is, seriously.

I'd rather have some faith entrusted in me
or none at all,

& the latter,
....sowhatforbeyourdaughterwhenican'tevenbeme.

doodledoodledoodledoodle =D

2008 has come & gone.
Fast, isn't it?
Well, perhaps to some.

It seems like as though it was just yesterday
i completed my 'O' Levels.
& now, a year have passed.
It won't take long before i'll be in
my second year in NYP.
Gosh, how time flies...

Haha, i bet most would be doing this kinda thing.
Posting about what they did in the past year &
what they want & hope to do in this present year.
& i ain't different. LOL.

2008. .
Well, what can i say?
Eventful?
.
..
...
Yes, definately.

The year where i'm out of classrooms
& shoved into tutorial rooms & lecture halls.
It took quite some time to get use to.
No more uniforms;
which i was actually looking forward to, but now
it feels like its just a chore to pick out new outfits.
Especially when you're a girl.
No more having teachers' breathing at the back of your neck;
haha, if you get my point.
Well, basically, its just more freedom
as compared to my 10. long. years. in government schools.

The year where i grew ambitious.
....insecure & perhaps alittle scared.
When you go from a girl
who didn't know better about planning about her future,
to this girl
who has to be independent & decisive about what she wants to do.
It's abit overwhelming.
Insecure cause there's no guarantee what opportunities
will lie ahead.
Scared cause you won't be able to achieve what
you're aiming for.
& yes, i'm going through that with an open-mind.

The year where i really danced by heart/butts' out.
Haha, honestly i've never been taught dance.
Like really, studying the different techniques of like
how to groove and the styles & genres.
I was surprised to find out that 'hip hop' itself,
has different types.
L.A, Asian, New Style.
& its great learning something you're passionate about.
I want & i will be a doper dancer than i am now.
XD

I guess that should be the highlights of 2008.
The ones that significally changed my life.
Hehe, there are others, but i'drathernotmakethempublic.

Alright, 2009 is here!
& to start off the year.
i have;

1 ICA next week,
1 more the following week,
2 projects dued by the end of the month
& thisotherthinglikeomgishouldsostopthinkingbutican'tstopsogodhelpme.

*claps*
& this is the way you start a new year. =D

.

..

....

I blame poly. & hormones.

This is one heck of a long post, no?
Haha, cause i won't be updating for awhile.
*points to that centred text*
Cause i'll be too busy revising.
Or not i'll be completing them assignments.
Or not i'll still be revising.
Or not i'll be having practices.
Or not i'll be in project meet-ups.

Ya, you should get my point.

Till here,
Juniors, let's be freaking badass sexy.