I ponder about things, can get quite morbid, theres a possibility that i want everything, everything & anything, but attaining everything is close to impossible, heck, it is impossible.
So sue me.

Yes, so it bothered me.

I believe every single soul has a good & bad side about them.
Sometimes, i'd go like "Don't do that, cos i said so."
& other times "Just go with what you feel right".
But people tend to see the latter of me
rather then the first though i do strongly think otherwise.

Scenario 1
It's not that i don't let you go ______.
Personally i don't feel right about it.
But in some ways, it seems like i'm tieing you down
& i don't want to be that way,
its like i'm putting a leash around your neck.

Scenario 2
But also if you look it in another light,
its just wrong.
Going together i guess is okay,
but what if i'm not keen?
Don't tell me you still want to go ahead.
& the answer you gave me was
a tad bit disappointing.

After i thought through Scenario 2,
i can't help but go back to Scenario 1.
& so the circle begins.
As you know,
Circles are known to be continous & has no end to it.

This is exactly why i envy people who knows what they want.

Till then,
on a more brighter note,
i like how you're very open & honest.
Its better this way,
perhaps i was just thinking too much,
thinking too far away from the present.

I wanted him, i longed for him.
I've heard things
& honestly i don't want that to get in the way.

"Don't think, feel.." - Ros Leila
That got me so hard,
cos all i've been doing was thinking
& not feeling.

& i knew from then on, what i've decided so far
wasn't what i wanted, wasn't something i should've decided upon.

So i changed, changed for us, the mindset.
That kiss, just that small little peck on the lips,
was exactly what i needed.

I have fallen deep & i don't want to get out this bliss hole.
I love you, Ahmad Arif.

Credit: LJ user.

Club Crawl 2009 was awesome!
I kinda miss it now after
2 days of performances
2 days of promoting FB
2 days of FB family bonding.

I believe i did okay for my performances.
Girls hiphop was fun,
i tend to lick my lips when i was performing
& sing along too. haha

However for Reggae,
it was kinda tough,
my techniques were't top notch yet
& i tend to lose balance,
but at least they weren't that significant in my performances,
well i hope it wasn't. lol.

Didn't bring my camera, damn!
so don't have much pictures to put up.

But believe me, it was awesome! =]

Tomorrow is Dea's Debutante Ball.
haha am going with ____.
Gosh you have no idea how thankful i am,
at least now i have someone with me rather than
going by myself.
& you know i love you! lol.

Hope tomorrow would be fun!
Free fooooood! haha
& i needa prepare a short speech.
well its nearly done!

Till the next update,
needa chill,
needa deal,
needa check out more hot guys,
needa search for dance videos,
& most importantly, needa draw!

End.
With all being said & done,
it all boiled down to this.

& say hello to your newly appointed
hotkinkysexy Secretary & Unofficial Designer of


New logo credit to Chaozhong, CK, Mike & me. =]
well mostly CZ, cos he is in a design course,
he knows more than me.

I really thank the committee & the FB seniors,
who sees that i have the potential to help FB grow.
I won't let you guys' down. =]

Till then,
managed to attract 16 guys to sign up for FB just now.
I'm charming, ya know? lol.
& theres this one that was a total shy guy, he's cute.
irememberedhisname...
lol, sorry, this is just the way i deal.
& sadly this is as far as it will go.

End.




Dance for most of my holidays.
& next week is already Club Crawl.

Joined the SBM Orientation Performance on the 16th of April
with Groov-E + DHYSC Inc.
Honestly i feel we weren't ready for the performance,
still not familiar with the whole choreo, minus 'That Boy'.
But turned out it ain't bad. =]
Cis said i was hot. XD
& Dea, we still love you, & always will.
Looking forward to your Debutante Ball!

The full run for Club Crawl we had on friday was okay.
Improvements still needed.
More practices this coming Monday till night time.
Practices are great, i love practices.

The car just got back from the vehicle hospital.
Missed it to the max. lol
So we went to Vivo like we used to,
bought a hell' lot of groceries.

Love, GFs & friends will be starting school soon.
Hope your first days will go on fine. =]
especially Itis, Shahida, Cis & Shannon.
They're my juniors. XD

Guess i'll stop here.
Till then, Thanks Shahida for the tag! =]
<3

Foreign Bodies will be performing for Club Crawl on the 22nd & the 23rd.
Do come down to catch the dopest that is FB. haha

& this is why,
i love, my dad.
inclusive of all the things he has
done & bought for me. haha =]

Dance-inspired mid-cut shoe, in addition to feminine appearance and performance, design provides maximum.

* Leather.
* EVA insole for comfort
* Substance.
* TORSION ® System supports the midfoot.
* Rubber sole color from without.
* Color: white / light purple / medium purple

Of all colours, the only one available was purple.
Black would've looked way better.
But when i tried it on, it was so comfortable that i couldn't pass it on
like i usually do with most shoes. haha

Thank you, Dad. <3

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IRAH!
Hope you had a nice birthday gf!
I love you! =]

Till then,
now i need to buy more purple shirts
to go with that shoe. lol
=]

Credit: LJ-user-whom-i-didn't-take-note.
In other words, itain'tmine.


These are what i had today:
Milk & a cookie.
Bubble Tea.
100plus.
A few fries.
Vanilla Cone.

Ah, healthy much? lol.

& i had prac today,
well only for about an hour.
I was late. >.<
But still, i wonder where i got my energy from,
must be the 100plus. haha

It dawned on me how unhealthy my meals are,
or can you even call those meals?
haha, have to eat more from now on.

=]. Erm ya end.
1.Real name: NurisahArisa Sakina XD
2.Nickname(s): Arisa, Shasha (strictly for mum only)
3.Star sign: Aries
4.Male or female: Female
5.Primary School: Ahmad Ibrahim Pri Sch
6.Secondary School: Yishun Secondary School
7.JC/Poly: NYP
8.Hair color: Black
9.Long or short: My hair? its longggg
10.Loud or Quiet: I can be both sometimes.
11.Sweats or Jeans: Both, sweats for dance, jeans for casual wear.
12.Phone or Camera: Phone WITH camera.
13.Health freak: Not much.
14.Drink or Smoke?: None.
15.Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes. KimBum! ....that hottie. XD
16.Eat or Drink: Drink.
17.Piercings: A pair at the ears.
18.Tattoos: Nope.

HAVE YOU EVER?:
19.Been in an airplane: Once.
20.Been in a relationship: Am now. =]
21.Been in a car accident: Nope.
22.Been in a fist fight: Not that i can recall.

FIRSTS:
23.First award: Umm, can't remember. lol
24.First best friend: Can't remember. haha
25.First Girl/Boyfriend: Who was my first again?
26.First crush: haha. i know this one. His name...
28.First vacation: Chiangmai. =]

LASTS:
29.Last person you talked to: Unnie
30.Last person you texted: Ahmadlove.
31.Last person(s) you watched a movie with: Ahmadlove.
32.Last food you ate: YanYan!
33.Last movie you watched: Coming Soon.
34.Last song you listened to: 보디가드 (애니콜 CF송 – 샤방 보디가드 폰) by 샤이니 SHINee
35.Last thing you bought: YanYan!
36.Last person you hugged: Unnie.

FAVES:
37.Food: Chicken Bulgogi Bap!
38.Drink: Bubble Tea
39.Clothing: I like dresses. lol
40.Book(s): Mystery, thriller, horror
41.Song(s): Stand By Me from BOF soundtrack. =]
42.Flower: I'd rather get food than flowers.
43.Colors: White, black.
44.Movies: Horror, mystery
45.Phrase: LOL much? LOL
46.Subject(s): English.

IN 2008, Did You:
47.Kissed in the snow: No snow. I want snow.
48.Celebrated Halloween: Nope.
49.Had your heart broken: I had my heart taken.
50.Went over the minutes on your cell phone: Why would i?
51.Someone questioned your sexual orientation: Sexual orientation?
52.Came out of the closet: haha my closet's full.
53.Gotten pregnant: In 9 years time perhaps.
54.Make someone cry: Nope
55.Done something you've regretted: Yup.
56.Broke a promise: None thats a big promise. lol
57.Hid a secret: Yes.
58.Pretended to be happy: Yes.
59.Met someone who changed your life: Ahmadlove.
60.Pretended to be sick: Nope, not in 2008 i think. XD
61.Left the country: Nope.
62.Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it: Yes.
63.Cried over the silliest thing: I don't think so.
64.Ran a mile: Nope. Hate running.
65.Have part-time work: Once.
66.Stay single the whole year: Haha for me, loadsa years.

CURRENTLY:
67.Eating: YanYan!
68.Drinking: Plain water.
69.Doing: Quiz & listening to music.
70.Listening to: BOF soundtrack. Man, i miss it already!
71.Plans for tomorrow: Shop with family i guess. =]
72.Waiting for: The chicken to defrost.

YOUR FUTURE:
73.Want kids?: Yes, in 9 years time. haha
74.Want to get married?: Refer to my answer above. =]
75.Careers in mind: Hotel manager? Dancer? Patissier? lol

HAVE YOU EVER :
83.Lost glasses/contacts: Nope
84.Ran away from home: Nope
85.Mistaken anyone for someone else: Sometimes
86.Lost your way before: I find it as an adventure. lol
87.Broken someone's heart: Twice i think.
88.Been arrested: Ya, once i was caught stealing a teddy bear. ....NOT.
89.Cried when someone died: Yup

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90.Yourself: Yes i do.
91.Miracles: Ya.
92.Love at first sight: Yes
93.Heaven: Absolutely.
94.Santa Claus: Him? He never got me presents before.
95.Sex on the first date: N.O.
96.Kiss on the first date : Plausable.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97.Is there one person you want to be with right now? Name?: Ahmadlove.
98.Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?: Yes but my life can be improved.
99.Do you believe in God: Yes. I do.

THIS IS THE 100TH QUESTION:
100.Do you think this is a best random quiz ever: Not really. haha

Labels: 보디가드 (애니콜 CF송 – 샤방 보디가드 폰)

WTH, kiss already!!
haha. still, this CF is love. completeandutterlove.
& the song's from SHINee, double the love! XD



KimBum & SoEun really need
& i mean seriously need
a drama of their own.
I'll shriek like hell if there is. lol

end.

Cake from Love! <3



Present from Mum!
& Dad for the Birthday allowance. hehe <3

I'm of legal age as of today, 1st of April.
& its a special one.
also, beside the fact that Boys Over Flower ends at this date. =(

Thank you so much to
Shahida, Jeyda, Zuliyani, Cis, Jabez, Yongyi, Melvin, Ifah
Azila senior, Farisa, Kenny, Jane, Wanming,
Nana, Joshie, Clement, FB Melly
& ofcourse, Lina & zyk unnie,
Irah, Kiki & Fad gfs, Guyfwen Wan, AhMUDlovelove XD
& Deanna dear
for all the birthday wishes! <3
Hope i didn't leave anyone out. >.<

If only i could spent more time in that mini celebration.
but too bad, mum was mad & wanted me to come home. lol
oh well, at least i enjoyed it. =]
Thank you love!

Edit: & this just made my day.
They seriously need a drama of their own.


Till then,
a 'what-would-you-do' question to peeps who read my blog.

If you wanted to use someone else's stuff/things,
would you normally ask for their permission first?